Here is the complete poem as written by Delaney:Delaney was a young woman that has died, this is a powerful poem she left behind. It has touched many people. The poem, demonstrates her struggle with a heroin addiction, it was included by her mother in her obituary (so much traffic the online version she posted crashed on Friday) after she found it in her daughter’s journal.
“Funny, I don’t remember no good dope days. I remember walking for miles in a dope fiend haze. I remember sleeping in houses that had no electric. I remember being called a junkie, but I couldn’t accept it. I remember hanging out in abandos that were empty and dark. I remember shooting up in the bathroom and falling out at the park. I remember nodding out in front of my sisters kid. I remember not remembering half of the things that I did. I remember the dope man’s time frame, just ten more minutes. I remember those days being so sick that I just wanted to end it. I remember the birthdays and holiday celebrations. All the things I missed during my incarceration. I remember overdosing on my bedroom floor. I remember my sisters cry and my dad having to break down the door. I remember the look on his face when I opened my eyes, thinking today was the day that his baby had died. I remember blaming myself when my mom decided to leave. I remember the guilt I felt in my chest making it hard to breathe. I remember caring so much but not knowing how to show it. and I know to this day that she probably don’t even know it. I remember feeling like I lost all hope. I remember giving up my body for the next bag of dope. I remember only causing pain, destruction and harm. I remember the track marks the needles left on my arm. I remember watching the slow break up of my home. I remember thinking my family would be better off if I just left them alone. I remember looking in the mirror at my sickly completion. I remember not recognizing myself in my own Damn reflection. I remember constantly obsessing over my next score but what I remember most is getting down on my knees and asking God to save me cuz I don’t want to do this no more !!! “
Baton Rouge, Louisiana
Back to Back is how it seemed to happen this time. July 5, 2016. In Baton Rouge, La. Alton Sterling was out on his grind, selling pirated DVDs, in front of a local store. When the police got this disturbance call, saying a homeless person had been threatened. The Store owner Abdulla Muflahi said and from the video captured, we can SEE the officer stick a gun to his chest and then we can HEAR if you move…I swear to God, and then lights out for Mr. Sterling. The store owner, Abdullah Muflahi, told the newspaper, he was not holding his gun or touching his pockets during the incident. The gun was later found in his pocket. Muflahi said he hurried up and put his phone in his pocket, because he didn’t want the police to take it from him. In the video you can see Mr. Sterling’s hands are pinned to his sides, after the killing, you see one of the officers in the video roll off of Mr. Sterling. They kept Mr. Muflahi in the back of police car for 2 hours, and they took his store video surveillance without his permission or a search warrant. Blane Salamoni and Howie Lake II are on paid leave. L.A. (Los Angeles) did you see the way Sterling’s 15-year old son, he just sobbed and cried out for his Dad. It was soooo heartwrenching.
St. Paul, Minnesota (St. Anthony) – Philando Castile on July 6, 2016 was killed by police officer, Jeronimo Yanez. He panicked and shot into a car with a female passenger, and a little four-year old girl in the back seat. He says, I told him to put his hands up, and the female passenger, Diamond Reynolds who was able to record some of what occurred, says “no sir, you told him to get his license and registration.” And then she tells the officer you shot his arm off. L.A….I don’t understand what happened in the aftermath, the delay in getting the paramedics…After being removed from the car, Diamond Reynolds is crying out in to the live stream in the back of police car, but heartbreaking her little four-year old daughter says “its okay, I’m right here with you.” And Mr. Castile is pronounced dead at 9:37 p.m. Over a busted tail light, I can’t.
Dallas Texas – July 7, 2017 Micah X Johnson -During what started out as a peaceful Black Life Matters protest, took an action that would leave 9 wounded and 5 police officers murdered. Micah used tactics learned in the military to deal a death blow, leaving children without fathers, parents without their sons, and wives without their husbands. It was reported by David Brown a Black Police Chief from Dallas, that Micah wanted to kill white people, white police officers, and he had bombs planted. The Dallas Police Department tried to negotiate, but in the end used a robot to blow Micah up. This too is tragic. All of those lives lost including Micah’s it’s so sad.
But, here we are in 2016. I spoke to 10 of my African-American male relatives, and I ask them, have you ever been stop by the police? And, if so did you feel it was it justified. My relatives live in big cities, and some smaller cities, they live or lived in cities like Houston, Chicago, Ardmore, Los Angeles, Dallas, all over. But, they all had been stopped. Some of them had been stopped for speeding, and they were okay with that. However, what they weren’t okay with was getting pulled over in Delaware for no apparent reason, being questioned like a criminal and then the Officer when he finished harassing him, walking away like that was okay. They’re not okay with they fit the description of robbery suspects, or they look suspicious, or getting followed home and harassed in their own driveway, a “You fit the description.” These are professional guys, not bangers. Each time these Black Men know these traffic stops can go bad. This is not new, it just won’t stop. So, Black parents before they give their sons the keys, they are usually giving them the talk. These are the reasons for the other great divide. Something is very wrong when men of all walks of life are constantly being profiled, and stopped and checked, and slammed on top of hoods, suspected of this and that, and more and more MURDERED because, they were selling loosies, CDs, are they fit the description, or just walking, or just driving, because they are African-American. And I’m not going to put the N.Y. Overseers’ name in my post, but trust and believe we do address Black on Black crime.
However, we work and pay taxes, taxes that probably pay your salary for you to “Protect and to Serve,” so I don’t think it’s too much to ask that you don’t kill us! In school believe or not they told us that if we ever got in trouble to find a police officer, we learned about the constitution and our inalienable rights that don’t seem to apply to us.
Most Americans are tired of all the senseless killings. The Black Lives that you take without seemingly a second thought, hurt real people. Family, Commuity we cannot become that we profess to be against. Police officers to please take time to get to know the people in the community you serve. You’ll find great people live there!
Chris Rock is scheduled to host the Oscars and many are calling for him to step down. He is probably under contract, so I really don’t see him doing that. The question was posed to Super Star Tyrese Gibson, and I have to say I was very impressed with his very passionate response regarding the issue. So now a co-worker ask me what I thought: she said “do you think Black people should get an award “just because their Black?” (I really thought how ignorant is that) Of course, I don’t think that just because, but I most certainly think that as minorities we should have the opportunity to win. Now, see I thought and told her, she should also be a little affronted because their aren’t any Asians, Latinos, Native Americans or anyone other than one race of people represented at the Oscars. Honestly, I am really not that impressed with what the great White people of the Academy think. And Black people hold your dollars that is what makes us count. I decide what I like and support what I want. So, what do you think L.A. Should we be concerned, Say something at SaySomethingLA.com
I watched this story a few times to try to figure out whatdaf$@! happened. So, I read that an African-American female student from Spring Valley high school refused to surrender her cell phone, refused to leave class, and refused to go with the Administrator. A classmate said the administrator pleaded with her to go, she also said the student was pleading to stay, saying she only looked at her cell phone quickly. The student refused to leave with the administrator so he/she called in Deputy Ben Fields. And that’s when stuff went South. So according to this student, Deputy Fields ask her if she was going to move and when she said “No, I haven’t done anything wrong” that’s when the deputy went ballistic.
Now on tape we see Deputy Fields of the Richland County sheriff Department, pull her arm, she does pull back, he then grabs some where around her neck area, she does swing at him twice (missing). He flips the whole desk over with her in it, drags her across the floor by her arms, and arrests her. The other students (children) in the class sat with stunned looks on their faces. One young girl did speak up and was arrested for her actions. I’ve watched, watched and re-watched this video. She was wrong she should have given her phone over or went to the office, here’s the but you are a man, trained-professional, flipping the desk over with the student in it. Way too much! I really don’t know if the dude is racist or just shouldn’t be around young people, people at ALL! Did you see it L.A…Say Something, what you think.
The Taste was Awesome this year. If you never been, this is the year you should have gone. First KJLH DJ MarSki is a fool, so much fun! He keeps the party going! MON-I-CA was off the chain. She was giving it to the people. Angie Stone was great, and everybody loves them some Joe. Joe can sing anything and we’re going to love it. Mint Condition is the most awesome band ever to be a band. There were multiple stages 94.7 the Wave represented. Gospel singers and choirs “SANG.” The Police were out supporting the community…that’s a change, if you have an interest in Law Enforcement and a clean record, L.A.P.D is hiring. The Fire Department, Los Angeles County, So Cal Gas were all on hand for the Festival. Wells Fargo and Bank of America supported. Harold and Belle’s was there, umm good food all over the place. It was hot but the Snow Balls helped. There were so many artists and vendors…Wooh-Good Times. A good friend of mine said she just enjoyed being amongst our people and new vendors, her dentist even had a booth. What was your favorite event L.A. Talk to me at SaySomethingLA.com
Empire is the VERY BEST thing on T.V. hands down!!! This episode was popping. I love the whole concept, new artists, family. Lucious (Terrence Howard)! You saving artists off the street, while your own son begs to come back. Trai Byers is serving it on Empire. And Cookie (Taraji P. Henson) she cain’t get no better.
Hakeem (Bryshere Gray), Yazz and Timbaland that was FREAKING FIRE!!! Yes, Yes!
Long Live the Empire only to Taken over by Lyon Dynasty!
This is my show L.A.! Taraji and Terrence, it just doesn’t get any better! Cookie started it off with that concert scene. I must admit I was like what the $+@! with the gorilla suit, but, Taraji brought it with the monologue. And then the scene where (I wasn’t really feeling Chris Rock as a character who evoked fear)Cookie goes to Lucious about Frank (Chris’s character) bothering them… oh yeah, I loved that! Lucious/Terrance handled that perfectly. I can’t wait ’til next week. Empire is back L.A. and the Lyons’ are roaring!